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Name: Lizzie
Location: Missouri, United States
Gender: Female
Interests: medicine, dogs, losing weight
Occupation: Student
Industry: Medical
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Member Since:
11/7/2004
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| Today has been my best eating day so far. I went all day without eatting til now and just ate some dry Cheerios. Probably ate more than needed but that's all I ate today, so I'm atleast half way proud of myself. So hopefully today is my turn around day. I so badly need to stop pigging out like I have been since Christmas. Wish me luck. I'm praying that I can do it again tomorrow. I already have a good portion of my day planned just to keep me busy. I know I need to start going to the gym again but I can't find it in me yet. Once I start I know it'll be better but still haven't been able to start yet. Maybe soon. I think once my fasting is back on track then I'll be more motivated. | | |
| Well my interview went great yesterday. It just gets more confusing after every interview. I have to figure out where in the world I want to end up. It'd be easy to stay here but at the same time fun to go somewhere different. So we'll just have to see. What I ate yesterday was horrible - every single meal plus snacks. Gosh I really suck. I'm never going to lose my weight again. For some reason I just can't get focused right now. Deep down yes of course I want to lose weight but on the surface I just want to eat and be normal. I need something to push me over the edge again to get be refocused and not be so freaking hungry. | | |
| Hi my lovely ladies!! I'm back. Yippee! It feels good to be back in my place. I've been gone for like 2 weeks now. Goodness. Atleast now I'm back here for a bit so I can get caught up on my life. So my past week was good. I went to Arizona and enjoyed the warm sunny weather in the middle of winter. It was great. Then I came back home to snow. It was so not fair. I wanted to stay in the sun. The only good news girls is that I didn't gain another 10 lbs. I still unfortunately weigh 145lbs though. Arg it feels awful. I've been eating almost every meal and when I do try to skip a meal I feel so freaking hungry that I have to give in. I sit here now and remind myself you went days without eatting and now you can't even go one meal. It is pathetic. It sucks. I hate being hungry. I hate eatting but yet I've been doing it and can't stop. Tonight I'm going out to dinner and then tomorrow I have another interview which means food all day. So my goal is to start fasting again on Sunday. I might start Saturday but I'm being honest with myself and will probably end up going out with some friends. But Sunday it is for sure. The fast is on. I'm going to start the fast slowly with just going down to one meal a day but then turn it into a liquid fast after a couple days. Plus I'm going to the gym everyday for atleast an hour. My goal for the end of the week is to weigh 140. I know I can do that. I've lost 5 lbs in one week before and will do it again. The fast is on baby! Ok well I'm going to visit some of your sites so I can catch up on your lives that I've been missing out on for so long. I'll be back on here later for sure. | | |
| Hi everyone! Hope you all had a wonderful and very Merry Christmas. Mine was good. I'd been at home for almost a week and it was food non stop. Everytime I turned around we were having a big meal, eating snacks, food was everywhere. I tried hard but I failed. I was awful. Once I gave it there was no turning back. So then I just ate every meal like a normal person and snacked. Gosh it was horrible. So I got back last night and weighed myself. I was so afraid and of course I'm back up to 145lbs. GRRRRRRR! I was 135 when I left. I gained 10 lbs in a week. That's awful. How in the world cana person do that! Makes me so mad. All my work for nothing. And I can't even start fasting again but I leave again tomorrow to go out of town. I'm going down to Arizona to visit some family over New Year's and then have a couple interviews too. So the eating will not stop. I'll be back next Thursday. I only hope that I don't gain 10 more lbs while I'm gone. OMG! I can't even imagine if I did that. I'd be so mad. But at the same time I can't help myself eating. I am so mad about it. I don't even know what to do. I just can't wait til next Thursday when I get back because then it will be fasting and working out like crazy.
I've missed all you girls. I just hope your holidays haven't turned out like mine. I don't have time to visit your sites today but when I'm back next week I gotta catch up with you all. Ana love to all :) | | |
| Well before I leave thought I should give an update. I weighed myself this morning and weighed 135!!!! I couldn't believe it. However I ended up stopping my fast today. I ran into a friend whom I hadn't seen in awhile so we went out to lunch. I did fairly good on not eating too much but still. The good thing was my stomach hurt after eating. Made me feel sick to eat, which is a good thing.
Oh and something weird last night. I had a dream that I ate McDonald's last night. It was so gross. It was one of those dreams that when I woke up it took me a bit before I realized it was only a dream. But for awhile I was soooo mad at myself for eating it. The dream was so graphic with all the fat and grease in the food too. It was just weird. Come on what normal person has a dream about eating food? I shouldn't obsess that much about food, but yet I do and to an extent I like to because it gives me control and I'm losing weight.
Ok so now I gotta go home for almost a week. I hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas. I'll miss you all. | | |
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